There is no
need for us to say anything about others. There is no need for you or for
me to regard other's actions in our thoughts one way or another. The worst
thing we can do is to force people to agree with us. I mean that we
shouldn't try to impose our will when people don't behave the way we want
them to. The worst thing one can do is to confront human beings bluntly. A
warrior proceeds strategically. If one wants to stop our
fellow men one must always be outside the circle that presses them. That
way one can always direct the pressure.
Fright never injures anyone.
What injures the spirit is having
someone always on your back, beating you, telling you what to do and what
not to do. People hardly
ever realize that we can cut anything from our lives, any time, just like
that. For example, smoking and drinking are nothing. Nothing at all if we
want to drop them. Only one thing is indispensable for anything we do; the
spirit. One can't do without the spirit.
I have no routines or personal history. One day I
found out that they were no longer necessary for me and, like drinking, I
dropped them. One must have the desire to drop them and then one must
proceed harmoniously to chop them off, little by little. If you have no
personal history, no explanations are needed; nobody is angry or
disillusioned with your acts. And above all no one pins you down with
their thoughts. It is best to erase all personal history because that
makes us free from the encumbering thoughts of other people. I have,
little by little, created a fog around me and my life. And now nobody
knows for sure who I am or what I do. Not even I. How can I know who I am,
when I am all this?
Little by little you must
create a fog around yourself; you must erase everything around you until
nothing can be taken for granted, until nothing is any longer for sure, or
real. Your problem now is that you're too real. Your endeavors are too
real; your moods are too real. Don't take things so for granted. You must
begin to erase yourself.
You've said that you want
to learn about plants. Let's put it this way then. If you want to learn
about plants, since there is really nothing to say about them, you must,
among other things, erase your personal history.
Begin with simple things, such as not revealing what you really do. What's
wrong is that once people know you, you are an affair taken for granted
and from that moment on you won't be able to break the tie of their
thoughts. I personally like the ultimate freedom of being unknown. No one
knows me with steadfast certainty, the way people know you, for
instance.
From now on you must simply show people
whatever you care to show them, but without ever telling exactly how
you've done it. You see, we only have two alternatives; we either take
everything for sure and real, or we don't. If we follow the first, we end
up bored to death with ourselves and with the world. If we follow the
second and erase personal history, we create a fog around us, a very
exciting and mysterious state in which nobody knows where the rabbit will
pop out, not even ourselves.
When nothing is for
sure we remain alert, perennially on our toes. It is more exciting not to
know which bush the rabbit is hiding behind than to behave as though we
know everything.
You
have to curl your fingers gently as you walk in order to keep your
attention on the trail and the surroundings. Your ordinary way of walking
is debilitating and you should never carry anything in your hands. If
things have to be carried one should use a knapsack or any sort of
carrying net or shoulder bag. By forcing the hands into a specific
position one is capable of greater stamina and greater
awareness.
If you really want to learn, you have
to remodel most of your behavior. You take yourself too seriously. You are
too damn important in your own mind. That must be changed! You are so
goddamn important that you feel justified to be annoyed with everything.
You're so damn important that you can afford to leave if things don't go
your way. I suppose you think that shows you have character. That's
nonsense! You're weak, and conceited! In the course of your life you have
not ever finished anything because of that sense of disproportionate
importance that you attach to yourself.
Self-importance is another thing that must be dropped, just like personal
history. The world around us is very mysterious. It doesn't yield its
secrets easily. Now we are concerned with losing self-importance. As long
as you feel that you are the most important thing in the world you cannot
really appreciate the world around you. You are like a horse with
blinders, all you see is yourself apart from everything else.
To help you lose self-importance talk to little plants. It
doesn't matter what you say to a plant, what's important is the feeling of
liking it, and treating it as an equal.
A man who
gathers plants must apologize every time for taking them and must assure
them that someday his own body will serve as food for them. So, all in
all, the plants and ourselves are even. Neither we nor they are more or
less important. From now on talk to the little plants, talk until you lose
all sense of importance. Talk to them until you can do it in front of
others. You must talk to them in a loud and clear voice if you want them
to answer you.
The world around us is a mystery,
and men are no better than anything else. If a little plant is generous
with us we must thank her, or perhaps she will not let us go.
You have to be aware of the
uselessness of your self-importance and of your personal
history.
Your death can give you a little warning,
it always comes as a chill. Death is our eternal companion, it is always
to our left, at an arm's length.
How can anyone
feel so important when we know that death is stalking us. The thing to do
when you're impatient is to turn to your left and ask advice from your
death. An immense amount of pettiness is dropped if your death makes a
gesture to you, or if you catch a glimpse of it, or if you just have the
feeling that your companion is there watching you.
The issue of our death is never pressed far enough. Death is the only wise
adviser that we have. Whenever you feel, as you always do, that everything
is going wrong and you're about to be annihilated, turn to your death and
ask if that is so. Your death will tell you that you're wrong; that
nothing really matters outside its touch. Your death will tell you, "I
haven't touched you yet."
One of us here has to
change, and fast. One of us here has to learn again that death is the
hunter, and that it is always to one's left. One of us here has to ask
deaths advice and drop the cursed pettiness that belongs to men that live
their lives as if death will never tap them.
Think of your death now. It is at arm's length.
It may tap you any moment, so really you have no time for crappy thoughts
and moods. None of us have time for that. The only thing that counts is
action, acting instead of talking.
When a man decides to do something he must go all the way,
but he must take responsibility for what he does. No matter what he does,
he must know first why he is doing it, and then he must proceed with his
actions without having doubts or remorse about them.
Look at me, I have no doubts or remorse. Everything I do is my
decision and my responsibility. The simplest thing I do, to take you for a
walk in the desert for instance, may very well mean my death. Death is
stalking me. Therefore, I have no room for doubts or remorse. If I have to
die as a result of taking you for a walk, then I must die.
You on the other hand, feel that you are immortal, and the
decisions of an immortal man can be cancelled or regretted or doubted. In
a world where death is the hunter, my friend, there is not time for
regrets or doubts. There is only time for decisions.
When you get angry you always feel righteous. You have been
complaining all your life because you don't assume responsibility for your
decisions. To assume the responsibility of one's decisions means that one
is ready to die for them. It doesn't matter what the decision is. Nothing
could be more or less serious than anything else. In a world where death
is the hunter there are no small or big decisions. There are only
decisions that we make in the face of our inevitable death.
In order to find the proper place
to rest all one has to do is to cross the eyes. The technique takes years
to perfect. It consists of gradually forcing your eyes to see separately
the same image. The lack of image conversion entails a double perception
of the world; this double perception allows one the opportunity of judging
changes in the surroundings, which the eyes are ordinarily incapable of
perceiving.
Looking in short glances allows the
eyes to pick out unusual sights. They are not sights proper, they are more
like feelings. If you look at a bush or a tree or a rock where you may
like to rest, your eyes can make you feel whether or not that's the best
resting place. I don't care what you see. How you feel is the important
issue. It takes a long time to train the eyes properly. The trick is to
feel with your eyes. Your problem now is that you don't know what to feel.
It'll come to you, though, with practice.
No one
can tell you what you are supposed to feel. It is not heat, or light, or
glare, or color. It is something else. Once you learn to separate the
images and see two of everything you must focus your attention in the area
between the two images. Any change worthy of notice would take place
there, in that area. The feeling that you get is what counts. I can't tell
you how to feel. You must learn that yourself.
I
hunt in order to live. I can live off the land, anywhere. To be a hunter
means that one can see the world in different ways. In order to be a
hunter one must be in perfect balance with everything else, otherwise
hunting would become a meaningless chore.
Today we
took a little snake. I had to apologize to her for cutting her life off so
suddenly and so definitely; I did what I did knowing that my own life will
also be cut off someday in very much the same fashion, suddenly and
definitely. So, all in all, we and the snakes are on a par. One of them
fed us today.
Hunters must be exceptionally tight
individuals. A hunter leaves very little to chance. For your purposes it
doesn't really matter whether you learn about plants or about hunting. I
am a hunter. I leave very little to chance. Perhaps I should explain to
you that I learned to be a hunter. I have not always lived the way I do
now. At one point in my life I had to change. Now I'm pointing the
direction to you. I'm guiding you. I know what I'm talking about; someone
taught me all this. I didn't figure it out for myself.
I'm having a gesture with you. Other people have had a similar
gesture with you; someday you yourself will have the same gesture with
others. Let's say that it is my turn. One day I found out that if I wanted
to be a hunter worthy of self-respect I had to change my way of life. I
used to whine and complain a great deal. I had good reasons to feel
shortchanged. I am an Indian and Indians are treated like dogs. There was
nothing I could do to remedy that, so all I was left with was my sorrow.
But then my good fortune spared me and someone taught me to hunt. And I
realized that the way I lived was not worth living ... so I changed
it.
I laugh a great
deal because I like to laugh, yet everything I say is deadly
serious.
It is
getting dark. The world is very strange at this time of the day. We are
very noticeable here and something is coming to us. It may seem to be wind
to you, because wind is all you know. Here it comes. Look how it is
searching for us. It's something that hides in the wind and looks like a
whorl, a cloud, a mist, a face that twirls around. It moves in a specific
direction. It either tumbles or it twirls. A hunter must know all that in
order to move correctly.
To believe that the world
is only as you think it is, is stupid. The world is a mysterious place.
Especially in the twilight. This can follow us. It can make us tired or it
might even kill us. At this time of the day, in the twilight, there is no
wind. At this time there is only power.
If you
would live out here in the wilderness you would know that during the
twilight the wind becomes power. A hunter that is worth his salt knows
that, and acts accordingly. He uses the twilight and that power hidden in
the wind. If it is convenient to him, the hunter hides from the power by
covering himself and remaining motionless until the twilight is gone and
the power has sealed him into its protection.
The
protection of the power seals you like in a cocoon. A hunter can stay out
in the open and no puma or coyote or slimy bug could bother him. A
mountain lion could come up to the hunters nose and sniff him, and if the
hunter does not move, the lion would leave. I can guarantee you
that.
If the hunter, on the other hand, wants to
be noticed all he has to do is to stand on a hilltop at the time of the
twilight and the power will nag him and seek him all night. Therefore, if
a hunter wants to travel at night or if he wants to be kept awake he must
make himself available to the wind.
Therein lies
the secret of great hunters. To be available and unavailable at the
precise turn of the road. You must learn to become
deliberately available and unavailable. As your life goes now, you are
unwittingly available at all times. To be unavailable does not mean to
hide or to be secretive but to be inaccessible. It makes no difference to
hide if everyone knows that you are hiding.
We are
fools, all of us, and you cannot be different. At one time in my life I,
like you, made myself available over and over again until there was
nothing of me left for anything except perhaps crying. And that I did,
just like yourself.
You must take yourself away.
You must retrieve yourself from the middle of the road. Your whole being
is there, thus it is of no use to hide; you would only imagine that you
are hidden. Being in the middle of the road means that everyone passing by
watches your comings and goings.
The art of a
hunter is to become inaccessible. To be inaccessible means that you touch
the world around you sparingly. You don't expose yourself to the power of
the wind unless it is mandatory. You don't use and squeeze people until
they have shriveled to nothing, especially the people you love.
To be unavailable means that you deliberately avoid
exhausting yourself and others. It means that you are not hungry and
desperate.
A hunter knows he will lure game into
his traps over and over again, so he doesn't worry. To worry is to become
accessible, unwittingly accessible. And once you worry you cling to
anything out of desperation; and once you cling you are bound to get
exhausted or to exhaust whoever or whatever you are clinging to.
I've told you already that to be inaccessible does not mean
to hide or to be secretive. It doesn't mean that you cannot deal with
people either. A hunter uses his world sparingly and with tenderness
regardless of whether the world might be things, or plants, or animals, or
people, or power. A hunter deals intimately with his world and yet he is
inaccessible to that same world. He is inaccessible because he's not
squeezing his world out of shape. He taps it lightly, stays for as long as
he needs to, and then swiftly moves away leaving hardly a mark.
A good hunter knows one thing
above all--he knows the routines of his prey. That's what makes him a good
hunter. A hunter that is worth his salt does not catch game because he
sets his traps, or because he knows the routines of his prey, but because
he himself has no routines. He is free, fluid, unpredictable.
In order to be a hunter you must disrupt the routines of
your life. I am concerned with the things animals do; the places they eat;
the place, the manner, the time they sleep; where they nest; how they
walk. These are the routines I am pointing out to you so you can become
aware of them in your own being.
All of us behave
like the prey we are after. That, of course, also makes us prey for
something or someone else. Now, the concern of a hunter, who knows all
this, is to stop being a prey himself. It takes time. You could begin by
not eating lunch every single day at twelve o'clock.
A good hunter changes his ways as often as
he needs. A hunter must not only know about the habits of his prey, he
also must know that there are powers on this earth that guide men and
animals and everything that is living. Powers that guide our lives and our
deaths.
All of us are fools. You always feel
compelled to explain your acts, as if you were the only man on earth who's
wrong. It's your old feeling of importance. You have too much of it; you
also have too much personal history. On the other hand, you don't assume
responsibility for your acts; you're not using your death as an adviser,
and above all you are too accessible.
One must
assume responsibility for being in a weird world. For you the world is
weird because if you're not bored with it you're at odds with it. For me
the world is weird because it is stupendous, awesome, mysterious,
unfathomable; my interest has been to convince you that you must assume
responsibility for being here, in this marvelous world, in this marvelous
desert, in this marvelous time. I want to convince you that you must learn
to make every act count, since you are going to be here for only a short
while, in fact, too short for witnessing all the marvels of it.
Change! If you do not respond to that challenge you are as
good as dead. You have never taken the responsibility for being in this
unfathomable world. Therefore, you were never an artist, and perhaps
you'll never be a hunter. There is one simple thing wrong with you--you
think you have plenty of time. You think your life is going to last
forever.
Now you're vehemently asserting some
non-sense. You don't have time for this display. This, whatever you're
doing now, may be your last act on earth. It may very well be your last
battle. There is no power which could guarantee that you are going to live
one more minute. If this were your last battle on earth, I would say that
you are an idiot. You are wasting your last act on earth in some stupid
mood.
You have no time, my friend, no time. None
of us have time. Don't just agree with me. Act upon it. What I recommend
you to do is to notice that we do not have any assurance that our lives
will go on indefinitely. Change comes suddenly and unexpectedly, and so
does death. There are some people who are very careful about the nature of
their acts. Their happiness is to act with the full knowledge that they
don't have time; therefore, their acts have a peculiar power.
Acts have power. Especially when the person acting knows
that those acts are his last battle. There is a strange consuming
happiness in acting with the full knowledge that whatever one is doing may
very well be one's last act on earth. I recommend that you reconsider your
life and bring your acts into that light.
You
don't have time, my friend. That is the misfortune of human beings. None
of us have sufficient time. Your acts cannot possibly have the flair, the
power, the compelling force of the acts performed by a man who knows that
he is fighting his last battle on earth.
We are
all going to die. There is something out there waiting for me, for sure;
and I will join it, also for sure. Use it. Focus your attention on the
link between you and your death, without remorse or sadness or worrying.
Focus your attention on the fact you don't have time and let your acts
flow accordingly. Let each of your acts be your last battle on earth. Only
under those conditions will your acts have their rightful power. Otherwise
they will be, for as long as you live, the acts of a timid man. There is
no time for timidity, simply because timidity makes you cling to something
that exists only in your thoughts. It soothes you while everything is at a
lull, but then the awesome, mysterious world will open its mouth for you,
as it will open for every one of us, and then you will realize that your
sure ways were not sure at all. Being timid prevents us from examining and
exploiting our lot as men.
Our death is waiting
and this very act we're performing now may well be our last battle on
earth. I call it a battle because it is a struggle. Most people move from
act to act without any struggle or thought. A hunter, on the contrary,
assesses every act; and since he has an intimate knowledge of his death,
he proceeds judiciously, as if every act were his last battle. Only a fool
would fail to notice the advantage a hunter has over his fellow men. A
hunter gives his last battle its due respect. It's only natural that his
last act on earth should be the best of himself. It's pleasurable that
way. It dulls the edge of his fright.
I've told
you, this is a weird world. The forces that guide men are unpredictable,
awesome, yet their splendor is something to witness. Call them forces,
spirits, airs, winds, or anything like that.
At moments of power, the world of ordinary
affairs does not exist and nothing can be taken for granted.
I've told you never to carry
anything in your hands when you walk. Get a knapsack.
Now it's time for you to become
accessible to power, and you are going to begin by tackling
dreaming.
A warrior seeks power, and
one of the avenues to power is dreaming . What you call
dreams are real for a warrior. You must understand that a warrior is not a
fool. A warrior is an immaculate hunter who hunts power; he's not drunk,
or crazed, and he has neither the time nor the disposition to bluff, or to
lie to himself, or to make a wrong move. The stakes are too high for that.
The stakes are his trimmed orderly life which he has taken so long to
tighten and perfect. He is not going to throw that away by making some
stupid miscalculation, by taking something for being something
else.
Dreaming is real for a warrior
because in it he can act deliberately, he can choose and reject, he can
select from a variety of items those which lead to power, and then he can
manipulate them and use them, while in an ordinary dream he cannot act
deliberately.
In dreaming you have
power; you can change things; you may find out countless concealed facts;
you can control whatever you want. You are going to learn how to make
yourself accessible to power.
Power is something a
warrior deals with. At first it's an incredible, far-fetched affair; it is
hard to even think about it. Then power becomes a serious matter; one may
not have it, or one may not even fully realize that it exists, yet one
knows that something is there, something which was not noticeable before.
Next power is manifested as something uncontrollable that comes to
oneself. It is not possible for me to say how it comes or what it really
is. It is nothing and yet it makes marvels appear before your very eyes.
And finally power is something in oneself, something that controls one's
acts and yet obeys one's command.
I am going to
teach you right here the first step to power. I am going to teach you how
to set up dreaming. To set up dreaming means to
have a concise and pragmatic control over the general situation of a
dream, comparable to the control one has over any choice in the desert for
instance, such as climbing up a hill or remaining in the shade of a water
canyon. You must start by doing something very simple. Tonight in your
dreams you must look at your hands. Don't think
it's a joke. Dreaming is as serious as seeing or
dying or any other thing in this awesome, mysterious world.
Think of it as
something entertaining and don't get discouraged or stop trying if you
don't succeed right away. Imagine all the inconceivable things you could
accomplish. A man hunting for power has almost no limits in his
dreaming. The trick in learning to set up
dreaming is obviously not just to look at things but to sustain the
sight of them. Dreaming is real when one has succeeded in
bringing everything into focus. Then there is no difference between what
you do when you sleep and what you do when you are not sleeping.
A warrior has to be perfect in order to deal with the powers
he hunts. Look at your hands. When they begin to change shape you must
move your sight away from them and pick something else, and then look at
your hands again. It takes a long time to perfect this
technique. Any warrior
could become a man of knowledge. As I told you, a warrior is an impeccable
hunter that hunts power. If he succeeds in his hunting he can be a man of
knowledge.
You are a man and like any man you
deserve everything that is a man's lot--joy, pain, sadness and struggle.
The nature of one's acts is unimportant as long as one acts as a warrior.
If you really feel that your spirit is distorted you should simply fix
it--purge it, make it perfect--because there is no other task in our
entire lives which is more worthwhile. Not to fix the spirit is to seek
death, and that is the same as to seek nothing, since death is going to
overtake us regardless of anything. To seek the perfection of the
warrior's spirit is the only task worthy of our manhood.
No matter how much you like to feel sorry for yourself, you have to
change that. It doesn't jibe with the life of a warrior.
The hardest thing in the world is to assume the mood of a warrior.
It is of no use to be sad and complain and feel justified in doing so,
believing that someone is always doing something to us. Nobody is doing
anything to anybody, much less to a warrior.
You
are here, with me, because you want to be here. You should have assumed
full responsibility by now, so the idea that you are at the mercy of the
wind would be inadmissible.
Self-pity doesn't jibe
with power. The mood of a warrior calls for control over himself and at
the same time it calls for abandoning himself.
Ordinary dreams get very vivid as soon as you
begin to set up dreaming. That vividness and clarity is a
formidable barrier. Don't be distracted from the purpose of
dreaming , which is control and power.
I'm going to remind you of all the techniques you must practice.
First you must focus your gaze on your hands as the starting point. Then
shift your gaze to other items and look at them in brief glances. Focus
your gaze on as many things as you can. Remember that if you only glance
briefly the images do not shift. Then go back to your hands.
Every time you look at your hands you renew the power needed
for dreaming , so in the beginning don't look at too many
things. Four items will suffice every time. Later on you may enlarge the
scope until you can cover all you want, but as soon as the images begin to
shift and you feel you are losing control go back to your hands.
When you feel you can gaze at things indefinitely you will
be ready for a new technique. I'm going to teach you this new technique
now, but I expect you to put it to use only when you are ready.
The next step in setting up dreaming is to
learn to travel. The same way you have learned to look at your hands you
can will yourself to move, to go places. First you have to establish a
place you want to go to. Pick a well-known spot--perhaps your school, or a
park, a friend's house--then, will yourself to go there.
This technique is very difficult. You must perform two tasks: you
must will yourself to go to the specific locale; and then, when you have
mastered that technique, you have to learn to control the exact time of
your traveling. You are making yourself accessible to power; you're
hunting it and I'm just guiding you.
Last night when the lion let out a scream, you
moved very well. Everything you did then was done within a proper mood.
You were controlled and at the same time abandoned. You were not paralyzed
with fear. To climb that bluff as you did, in darkness, required that you
hold on to yourself and let go of yourself at the same time, that's what I
call the mood of a warrior.
I wanted to show you
that you can spur yourself beyond your limits if you are in the proper
mood. A warrior makes his own mood. You didn't know that. Fear got you
into the mood of a warrior, but now that you know about it, anything can
serve to get you into it.
It's convenient to
always act in such a mood, it cuts through the crap and leaves one
purified. One needs the mood of a warrior for every single act, otherwise
one becomes distorted and ugly. There is no power in a life that lacks
this mood. A warrior is a hunter. He calculates
everything. That's control. But once his calculations are over, he acts.
He lets go.
That's abandon. A warrior is not a leaf at the mercy of the
wind. No one can push him; no one can make him do things against himself
or against his better judgment. A warrior is tuned to survive, and he
survives in the best of all possible fashions.
A
warrior could be injured but not offended. For a warrior there is nothing
offensive about the acts of his fellow men as long as he himself is acting
within the proper mood.
The mood of a warrior is
not so far-fetched for yours or anybody's world. You need it in order to
cut through all the guff. To achieve the mood of a warrior is not a simple
matter. It is a revolution. To regard the lion and the water rats and our
fellow men as equals is a magnificent act of the warrior's spirit. It
takes power to do that.
There's no plan when it comes to hunting power. Hunting power or
hunting game is the same. A hunter hunts whatever presents itself to him.
Thus he must always be in a state of readiness. You know about the wind,
and now you may hunt power in the wind by yourself. But there are other
things you don't know about which are, like the wind, the center of power
at certain times and at certain places.
Power is a
very peculiar affair. It is impossible to pin it down and say what it
really is. It is a feeling that one has about certain things. Power is
personal. It belongs to oneself alone. A hunter of power entraps it and
then stores it away as his personal finding. Thus, personal power grows,
and you may have the case of a warrior who has so much personal power that
he becomes a man of knowledge.
If you store power
your body can perform unbelievable feats. On the other hand, if you
dissipate power you'll be a fat old man in no time at all. A hunter of
power watches everything and everything tells him some secret. How can one
be sure that things are telling secrets? you ask. The only way to be sure
is by following all the instructions I have been giving you, starting from
the first day you came to see me. In order to have power one must live
with power.
There are worlds upon worlds, right
here in front of us. And they are nothing to laugh at. Power commands you
and yet it is at your command.
Power is a very
weird affair. In order to have it and command it one must have power to
begin with. It's possible, however, to store it, little by little, until
one has enough to sustain oneself in a battle of power.
The world is a mystery. This, what you're looking at, is not all
there is to it. There is much more to the world, so much more, in fact,
that it is endless. So when you're trying to figure it out, all you're
really doing is trying to make the world familiar. You and I are right
here, in the world that you call real, simply because we both know it. You
don't know the world of power, therefore you cannot make it into a
familiar scene.
Once you know what it is like to
stop the world you realize there is a reason for it. You see,
one of the arts of the warrior is to collapse the world for a specific
reason and then restore it again in order to keep on living.
Someday you will live like a warrior, in spite of yourself.
I have taught you nearly everything a warrior needs to know in order to
start off in the world, storing power by himself. It takes a lifelong
struggle to be by oneself in the world of power.
A warrior never turns his back to power
without atoning for the favors received. When in places of power, you have
to act as if nothing is out of the ordinary, because they have the
potential of draining people who are disturbed.
You should try willing yourself to go to a
specific place in dreaming while you take a nap during the
daytime and find out if you can actually visualize the chosen place as it
is at the time you are dreaming . Otherwise the visions you
might have are not dreaming but ordinary dreams.
In order to help yourself you should pick a specific object
that belongs to the place you want to go and focus your attention on it.
It is easier to travel in dreaming when you can focus on a
place of power. Perhaps the school where you go is a place of power for
you. Use it. Focus your attention on any object there and then find it in
dreaming . From the specific object you recall, you must go
back to your hands and then to another object and so on.
It doesn't matter how one was brought up,
what determines the way one does anything is personal power. A man is only
the sum of his personal power, and that sum determines how he lives and
how he dies.
Personal power is a feeling,
something like being lucky. Or one may call it a mood. Personal power is
something that one acquires regardless of one's origin. A warrior is a
hunter of power. I am teaching you how to hunt and store it. The
difficulty with you, which is the difficulty with all of us, is to be
convinced. You need to believe that personal power can be used and that it
is possible to store it. To be convinced means that you can act by
yourself.
A man of knowledge is one who has
followed truthfully the hardships of learning; a man who has, without
rushing or faltering, gone as far as he can in unraveling the secrets of
personal power. Only be concerned with the idea of storing personal
power.
Hunting power is a peculiar event. It first
has to be an idea, then it has to be set up, step by step, and then,
bingo! It happens. Hunting power is a very strange affair. There is no way
to plan it ahead of time. That's what's exciting about it. A warrior
proceeds as if he had a plan though, because he trusts his personal power.
He knows for a fact that it will make him act in the most appropriate
fashion.
I treat
myself very well, therefore, I have no reason to feel tired or ill at
ease. The secret is not in what you do to yourself but rather in what you
don't do.
This is a
place of power. Find a place for us to camp here on this hilltop. This
time just act for a change. It doesn't matter how long it takes you to
find a suitable place to rest. It might take you all night. It is not
important that you find the spot either; the important issue is that you
try to find it. You have to look without focusing on any particular spot,
squinting your eyes until your view is blurred, and don't let your
preference for routines take over.
I screamed
because abrupt noises scare away unpleasant spirits. Power does not belong
to anyone. Some of us may gather it and then it could be given directly to
someone else. You see, the key to stored power is that it can be used only
to help someone else store power.
Everything a man
does hinges on his personal power. Therefore, for one who doesn't have
any, the deeds of a powerful man are incredible. It takes power to even
conceive what power is. This is what I have been trying to tell you all
along. The world is a mystery and it is not at all
as you picture it. Well, it is also as you picture it, but that's not all
there is to the world; there is much more to it. You have been finding
that out all along, and perhaps tonight you will add one more
piece.
I don't plan anything. All is decided by
the same power that allowed you to find this spot.
I'm checking your carrying net to see if the food gourds and your writing
pads are secured. A warrior always makes sure that everything is in proper
order, not because he believes that he is going to survive the ordeal he
is about to undertake, but because that is part of his impeccable
behavior.
Trust your personal power. That's all
one has in this whole mysterious world. Get hold of yourself, because the
darkness is like the wind, an unknown entity at large that could trick you
if you are not careful, and you have to be perfectly calm in order to deal
with it. You must let yourself go so your personal power will merge with
the power of the night.
A warrior acts as if he
knows what he is doing, when in effect he knows nothing. A warrior is
acting impeccably when he trusts his personal power regardless of whether
it is small or enormous.
I'm going to demonstrate a special way of walking in the darkness;
the gait of power. My trunk is slightly bent forward, but my spine is
straight. My knees are also slightly bent. Raise your knees almost to your
chest every time you take a step.
The gait of
power is for running at night, and it is completely safe. This is the
night! And it is power!
At night the world is
different. My ability to run in the darkness had nothing to do with my
knowledge of these hills. The key to it is to let one's personal power
flow out freely, so it could merge with the power of the night. Once that
power takes over there is no chance for a slip-up.
You have to abandon yourself to the power of the night and trust the
little bit of personal power that you have or you will never be able to
move with freedom. The darkness is encumbering only because you rely on
your sight for everything you do, not knowing that another way to move is
to let power be the guide.
Keep on moving on the
same spot and try to feel as if you are actually using the gait of power.
First curl your fingers against your palms, stretching out the thumb and
index of each hand.
You can always see fairly
well, no matter how dark the night is, if you don't focus on anything but
keep scanning the ground right in front of you. The gait of power is
similar to finding a place to rest. Both entail a sense of abandon, and a
sense of trust. The gait of power requires that one keep the eyes on the
ground directly in front, because even a glance to either side will
produce an alteration in the flow of movement. Bending the trunk forward
is necessary in order to lower the eyes. The reason for lifting the knees
up to the chest is because the steps have to be very short and safe. You
are going to stumble a great deal at first but with practice you will be
able to run as swiftly and as safely as you can in the daytime.
There are entities which are
in the world, and which act on people. They are here, around us at all
times. In daylight, however, it is more difficult to perceive them, simply
because the world is familiar to us, and that which is familiar takes
precedence. In the darkness, on the other hand, everything is equally
strange and very few things take precedence, so we are more susceptible to
those entities at night.
There is only one way to
learn, and that way is to get down to business. To only talk about power
is useless. If you want to know what power is, and if you want to stress
it you must tackle everything yourself.
The road
to knowledge and power is very difficult and very long. Little by little
you are plugging up all your points of drainage. You don't have to be
deliberate about it, because power always finds a way. Take me as an
example. I didn't know I was storing power when I first began to learn the
ways of a warrior. Just like you, I thought I wasn't doing anything in
particular, but that was not so. Power has the peculiarity of being
unnoticeable when it is being stored.
You must stretch your body many times during the
day. The more times the better, but only after a long period of work or a
long period of rest.
Your body needs fright. It likes it. Your body needs the darkness and the
wind. Your body now knows the gait of power and can't wait to try
it.
I've told you that the secret of a strong body
is not in what you do to it but what you don't do. Now it is time for you
not to do what you always do.
Practice
not-doing by looking at a tree or bush; fix your attention
not on the leaves but on the shadows of the leaves. Running in the
darkness does not have to be spurred by fear but can be a very natural
reaction of a jubilant body that knows how to
not-do.
To not-do what
you know how to do is the key to power. In the case of looking at a tree
or bush, what you know how to do is to focus immediately on the foliage.
The shadows of the leaves or the spaces in between the leaves are never
your concern. Start focusing on the shadows of the leaves on one single
branch and then eventually work your way to the whole tree, and don't let
your eyes go back to the leaves, because the first deliberate step to
storing personal power is to allow the body to not-do. The
body likes things like this. You can stop the world using
this technique. Once you have succeeded, you must work as if nothing has
happened to you and don't mention or even be concerned with any of the
events you have experienced.
You should not have remorse for anything you have done,
because to isolate one's acts as being mean, or ugly, or evil is to place
an unwarranted importance on the self. Well-being is a condition one has
to groom, a condition one has to become acquainted with in order to seek
it. You don't know what well-being is, because you have never experienced
it. Well-being is an achievement one has to deliberately seek.
In order to accomplish the feat of making yourself miserable
you have to work in a most intense fashion. It is absurd you have never
realized you could work just the same in making yourself complete and
strong. The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves
miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the
same.
Today you must
be perfectly calm and restored, because you are going to learn
not-doing in spite of the fact that there is no way to talk
about it, because it is the body that does it.
That rock over there is a rock because of doing. You say that
you don't understand what I mean. Your saying that is doing.
Doing is what makes that rock a rock and that bush a bush.
Doing is what makes you yourself and me myself. Take that
rock for instance. To look at it is doing , but to
see it is not-doing. You say my words are not
making sense to you. Oh yes they do. But you are convinced that they don't
because that is your doing. That is the way you act towards
me and the world.
That rock is a rock because of
all the things you know how to do to it. I call that doing. A
man of knowledge, for instance, knows that the rock is a rock only because
of doing , so if he doesn't want the rock to be a rock all he
has to do is not-doing.
The world is
the world because you know the doing involved in making it
so. If you didn't know its doing , the world would be
different. Without that certain doing there would be nothing
familiar in the surroundings. This is a pebble because you know the
doing involved in making it into a pebble. Now, in order to
stop the world you must stop doing. In the case
of this little rock, the first thing which doing does to it
is to shrink it to this size. So the proper thing to do, which a warrior
does if he wants to stop the world , is to enlarge a little
rock, or any other thing, by not-doing.
Look at the holes and depressions in the pebble and try to pick out
the minute detail in them. If you can pick out the detail, the holes and
depressions will disappear and you will understand what
not-doing means.
Doing
makes you separate the pebble from the larger boulder. If you want to
learn not-doing , let's say that you have to join them. See
the small shadow that the pebble cast on the boulder. It is not a shadow
but a glue which binds them together. A warrior can tell all kinds of
things from the shadows.
A warrior always tries to
affect the force of doing by changing it into
not-doing . Doing would be to leave the pebble
lying around because it is merely a small rock. Not-doing
would be to proceed with that pebble as if it were something far beyond a
mere rock.
Is all this true? To say yes or no to
that question is doing. But since you are learning
not-doing I have to tell you that it really doesn't matter
whether or not all this is true. It is here that a warrior has a point of
advantage over the average man.
An average man
cares that things are either true or false, but a warrior doesn't. An
average man proceeds in a specific way with things that he knows are true,
and in a different way with things that he knows are not true. If things
are said to be true, he acts and believes in what he does. But if things
are said to be untrue, he doesn't care to act, or he doesn't believe in
what he does. A warrior, on the other hand, acts in both instances. If
things are said to be true, he would act in order to do doing
. If things are said to be untrue, he still would act in order to do
not-doing . Not-doing is only for very strong
warriors.
There are
infinite numbers of lines that join us to things. They are real lines. You
can feel them. The most difficult part about the warrior's way is to
realize that the world is a feeling. When one is not-doing ,
one is feeling the world, and one feels the world through its
lines.
Not-doing is very simple but
very difficult. It is not a matter of understanding but of mastering it.
Seeing , of course, is the final accomplishment of a man of
knowledge, and seeing is attained only when one has
stopped the world through the technique of
not-doing .
Shadows are peculiar
affairs. Look at the shadow of that boulder. The shadow is the boulder,
and yet it isn't. To observe the boulder in order to know what the boulder
is, is doing , but to observe its shadow is
not-doing .
Shadows are like doors,
the doors of not-doing . A man of knowledge, for example, can
tell the innermost feelings of men by watching their shadows. You may say
that there is movement in them, or you may say that the lines of the world
are shown in them, or you may say that feelings come from them. To believe
that shadows are just shadows is doing. That belief is
somehow stupid. Think about it this way: there is so much more to
everything in the world that obviously there must be more to shadows too.
After all, what makes them shadows is merely our
doing.
When searching for a resting
place one has to look without focusing but in observing shadows one has to
cross the eyes and yet keep a sharp image in focus. The idea is to let one
shadow be superimposed on the other by crossing the eyes. Through this
process one can ascertain a certain feeling which emanates from
shadows.
Dreaming is the
not-doing of dreams, and as you progress in your
not-doing you will also progress in dreaming.
The trick is not to stop looking for your hands, even if you don't believe
that what you are doing has any meaning. In fact, as I have told you
before, a warrior doesn't need do believe, because as long as he keeps on
acting without believing he is not-doing .
If you tackle not-doing directly, you yourself will
know what to do in dreaming .
During
the day shadows are the doors of not-doing , but at night,
since very little doing prevails in the dark, everything is a
shadow. I've already told you about this when I taught you the gait of
power.
Everything I have taught you so far has
been an aspect of not-doing . A warrior applies
not-doing to everything in the world, and yet I can't tell
you more about it than what I have said today. You must let your own body
discover the power and the feeling of not-doing .
It is stupid for you to scorn
the mysteries of the world simply because you know the doing
of scorn.
The only
thing that is real is the being in you that is going to die. To arrive at
that being is the not-doing of the self.
When every one of us is born we bring with
us a little ring of power. That little ring is almost immediately put to
use. So every one of us is already hooked from birth and our rings of
power are joined to everyone else's. In other words, our rings of power
are hooked to the doing of the world in order to make the
world.
For instance, our rings of power, yours and
mine, are hooked right now to the doing in this room. We are
making this room. Our rings of power are spinning this room into being at
this very moment.
A man of knowledge develops
another ring of power. I would call it the ring of not-doing
, because it is hooked to not-doing . With that ring,
therefore, he can spin another world.
Your
difficulty is that you haven't yet developed your extra ring of power and
your body doesn't know not-doing . We all have been taught to
agree about doing . You don't have any idea of the power that
that agreement brings with it. But, fortunately, not-doing is
equally miraculous, and powerful.
There is no way
to escape the doing of our world, so what a warrior does is
to turn his world into his hunting ground. As a hunter, a warrior knows
that the world is made to be used. So he uses every bit of it. A warrior
is like a pirate that has no qualms in taking and using anything he wants,
except that the warrior doesn't mind or he doesn't feel insulted when he
is used and taken himself.
The instant one begins to live like a warrior, one is no longer
ordinary. It is meaningless to complain. What's important from this point
on is the strategy of your life.
You may go any
place you wish, but if you do, you must assume the full responsibility for
that act. A warrior lives his life strategically. When he has to act with
his fellow men, a warrior follows the doing of strategy, and
in that doing there are no victories or defeats. In that
doing there are only actions. The doing of
strategy entails that one is not at the mercy of people.
There is something you ought to be aware
of by now. I call it the cubic centimeter of chance. All of us, whether or
not we are warriors, have a cubic centimeter of chance that pops out in
front of our eyes from time to time. The difference between an average man
and a warrior is that the warrior is aware of this, and one of his tasks
is to be alert, deliberately waiting, so that when his cubic centimeter
pops out he has the necessary speed, the prowess to pick it up.
Chance, good luck, personal power, or whatever you may call
it, is a peculiar state of affairs. It is like a very small stick that
comes out in front of us and invites us to pluck it. Usually we are too
busy, or too preoccupied, or just too stupid and lazy to realize that that
is our cubic centimeter of luck. A warrior, on the other hand, is always
alert and tight and has the spring, the gumption necessary to grab
it. You maintain that
your insistence on finding explanations for everything is something so
deeply ingrained in you that it overrules every other consideration, that
it's like a disease. There are no diseases, there is only indulging. And
you indulge yourself in trying to explain everything.
We both are beings who are going to die. There is no more time for
what we used to do. Now you must employ all the not-doing I
have taught you and stop the world.
People tell us from the time we are born that
the world is such and such and so and so, and naturally we have no choice
but to see the world the way people have been telling us it is.
Seeing happens only when one sneaks between the worlds; the
world of ordinary people and the world of sorcerers.
The real thing is when the body realizes that it can
see. Only then is one capable of knowing that the world we
look at every day is only a description. My intent has been to show you
that. Only as a warrior
can one survive the path of knowledge, because the art of a warrior is to
balance the terror of being a man with the wonder of being a
man.
Nothing is
gained by forcing an issue. If you want to survive you must be crystal
clear and deadly sure of yourself.
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