by
Aletheia Luna
February 15, 2024
from
LonerWolf Website
In our hyper-connected world, where the very fabric of our society
is being remodeled and reshaped by technology at a lightning-quick
pace, and where the old institutions that once held us together
(e.g., religion) are crumbling, it's only natural that an increasing
number of us are feeling lonely...
As a result of mass globalization, the rise of the machine, pandemic
crises, climate crises, political crises, crises of family, crises
of equality, cancel-culture crises, crises of meaning, mental health
crises, crises crises crises (am I getting the point across yet...?)
...it's also no wonder that many of us WANT to be alone,
but don't know how, and have no idea how to even be okay with it.
My Journey With Being Alone & the
Stigma and Shame Surrounding It
There is still so much stigma surrounding spending time alone.
As someone who has been on a pretty solitary journey for the past
10+ years, I still at times grapple with the shame that surrounds
being not just an introvert, but a loner.
I have a strong relationship, two doggos that I adore, work that I
love, and a nourishing spiritual practice, but I don't have many
friends.
In fact, I haven't had a solid group of friends since my high school
years.
I kind of just... became a lone wolf after
graduating high school and quitting university. And forming adult
relationships since then has been a pretty "meh" experience.
I have tried volunteering, I have tried joining yoga and meditation
classes, and even a Buddhist center, but the fact is that I am,
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shy
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still carry unresolved attachment wounds
from childhood that make my boundaries either too rigid or
too porous (it's a work in progress!)
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struggle with anxiety due to my religious
trauma
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a neurodivergent HSP who struggles with
sensory overwhelm
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I love my solitude!
I'm not looking for advice here.
I'm fortunate to have access to therapy, so I'm
not inviting free therapy in the comments. I have done a lot of
inner work and have made a lot of progress through the years - and
I'm still on this journey of softening, opening, and returning to my
inner Center.
But the truth of the matter is that I find myself alone a lot of the
time, other than spending time with my partner and our dogs each day
and visiting extended family once a week.
The work I do (writing for and running this website) means that I
spend the majority of my time (maybe 90% of my week) online and at
home.
For me, this is a dream come true...
No commutes to work? Hell yeah...!
No office politics? Woohoo...!
But I also, from time to time, feel lonely.
I sometimes get pangs of guilt that whisper,
"You need to get out more and be more like
other people."
Or shame that says,
"Everyone else has tons of friends - look at
them all laughing and smiling in that social media post! - why
don't you have that?"
And that place deep inside of me - the wounded
inner child you could call it - sometimes wonders,
"Is there something seriously wrong with
me?",
...to which my inner critic chimes in and says,
with a cold smile and a Cruella Deville voice,
"Yes, there IS something terribly wrong with
you, darling. You are fundamentally broken, and everyone can see
it."
But although I don't have many friends IRL, and
find myself alone a lot of the time, I have learned how to be happy
alone.
Even before my work here, finding my partner, or
getting my dog companions, I learned how to be happy alone when I
was truly internally alone.
And I believe it was that capacity to enjoy
being alone, that allowed me to enjoy the life I currently live.
So I will draw on that wisdom and the lessons I've learned across
the past 10+ years to help you, dear reader and fellow lone wolf, to
learn how to be happy alone, and be okay with it.
How to Be Happy Alone - Some
Empowering Paths
I'm not sure what circumstances have led to you being alone.
Maybe you've gone through,
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a breakup
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a divorce
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changed country
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have neuro-divergence
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are going through some kind of spiritual
awakening
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are at an age where most friends and
family members have passed
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have a solitary job
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struggle with some kind of mental illness
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are a carer
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are a stay-at-home parent
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don't know to reach out to others,
...whatever the case, I want you to know that
being alone is a blessing...!
Yes, being alone can sometimes feel like a curse, and we do need
human warmth from time to time (a therapist and even online friends
and connections can be of help in that case), but I want to reframe
and change the way that we look at being alone.
Being alone helps us to:
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Listen to our needs and our own inner
voice
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Relax, unwind, and decompress
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Discover what we truly want in life
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Access creative ideas and original
thinking
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Tap into deep emotional and spiritual
insights
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Befriend ourselves
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Tune into the voice of our Soul
So with that being said, here's how to be happy
alone and be okay with it:
#0 Give yourself permission to
have permission
I want to begin with this preliminary step here that recognizes
that "permission" is the key to learning how to be happy alone.
Why?
Permission is what gives us the internal authorization to think,
feel, and do things in a different way.
We often carry so much inner baggage surrounding being alone.
We're taught by society in all of its many forms that not having
any friends, or a partner, or a family, etc., means that there
is something "wrong" with you.
But when we look at the cesspool of suffering that is society
and the "Soul-sucking void of meaningless affirmation" that is
social media (I have to channel my inner Wednesday Addams here,
hehe...), that's not exactly a great standard to live by, is it?
So give yourself permission to be happy alone.
Give yourself permission to LOVE your
solitude. Permit yourself to be alone on Easter, on Halloween,
on Christmas, on every major calendar event, and feel good about
it and yourself!
Because why shouldn't you?
You have the right to be happy alone.
#1 Give yourself permission to rest
Being alone means that you probably have more space than other
people.
And even if you find yourself in a situation
where you're not physically alone (and are instead around many
others), that internal aloneness can enable you to tune into
yourself and your body and mind's needs.
Rest allows you to calm your vagus nerve/nervous system, regain
vitality and creativity, and feel contained in your body again.
Rest is the prerequisite to all following
points below because, without rest, we don't have the energy,
imagination, or impulse to make the most of our solitude.
#2 Give yourself permission to play
Learning how to play and have fun by yourself is tremendously
healing.
When it comes to learning how to be happy
alone, play is at the very heart of what makes solitude so
enjoyable.
What does play look like for you?
What do you feel excited about creating?
What do you feel joyful doing?
Take your inner child by the hand,
step into the role of the loving inner parent, and go wild!
That might mean learning how to bake
something delicious, honing the art of gardening, learning an
artistic skill, embarking on a crafty project, traveling to a
new and mysterious place, playing with your furry family
members, or star gazing - there are so many opportunities to
play!
#3 Give yourself permission to
pursue a project of unbearable passion
Okay, maybe "unbearable passion" is a little melodramatic.
But what I mean is that the key to not only
learning how to be alone but relishing it is to find out what
lights you on fire.
What fascinates, thrills, inspires, heals, delights, and
intrigues you?
Play (the previous point I just wrote about), is what enables
you to find what you love occupying your time with and what your
ikigai (a Japanese word meaning 'reason for being') is.
If your passion also helps humanity in some way, extra brownie
points to you because not only will that make being alone
worthwhile, but also deeply meaningful...!
As a result of my own personal play and exploration, I
discovered my ikigai in the form of this website:
lonerwolf (unironically named!).
#4 Give yourself permission to rewrite the
internal narrative
Often, being alone is coupled with feelings of guilt, toxic
shame, self-blame, self-loathing, and a whole load of other
painful emotions.
It's not uncommon to fall into a kind of
victim mentality where we feel like tiny little islands in
the vast ocean of life.
"Why can't I be more like...?"
"Look at all their friends! I don't have
any of that... I'm a sad loser."
"It's tragic to be spending this much
time by myself."
"There must be something wrong with me."
"I'm always going to be alone."
"No one understands or cares about me."
Have you ever had any of the above inner
narratives rotating around your mind? (I certainly have!)
Giving yourself permission to rewrite your inner narrative means
being willing to step out of the role of being a victim, or
being a weirdo, or being a [fill in negative self-judgment
here], to simply being a person who happens to be alone.
What would rewriting your inner narrative
look, feel, and sound like to you?
How can you gift yourself with a positive, healthier, and
self-affirming inner narrative?
Examples might include,
"I'm an introvert who loves spending time
alone, and that's okay!"
"I feel nourished and revitalized by spending time alone."
"Although I might feel lonely from time to time, I know that
I am always connected to my higher power."
"Many people are alone like me right now, and that's okay.
It gives me more space to do the things I love."
"I have the right to embrace my personality style and not
buy into the false messages of society about who I 'should'
be."
Can you think of any other self-healing inner
narratives?
#5 Give yourself permission to heal, grow, and
be gentle
Without the level of solitude I've experienced, there's no way I
would be able to:
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Feel creative enough to write for and
create the content for this platform
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Create and sustain this website in
the first place
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Go deep into my inner work and
healing spiritual journey
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Forge a nourishing connection with
Soul and Spirit
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Find connection in different ways:
through nature, meditation, spirit guides and allies,
online groups, and friendly faces
Learning how to be happy alone and being OK
with it is 100% an inner job - it's a mentality that we carry,
not something we can ever find on the outside.
Being alone opens the doorways to deeper healing,
mental/emotional/spiritual growth, and the ability to find out
who we are and what we want. It gives us the space to process
old traumas, heal old wounds, and begin anew.
Ever wonder why many monks, nuns, sages, mystics, and spiritual
figures through the ages spent prolonged periods alone?
It's because aloneness can be tremendously
healing if you allow it to be.
Sure, the mind might jump in and start parroting judgments based
on societal conditioning, but solitude has always been a gateway
to not just joy, but also fulfillment.
I'm not saying that being alone means becoming some kind of
prophet, but instead, what I'm saying is that,
being alone is innately a spiritual
rite of passage...
And maybe, that's the ultimate reason why
you're finding yourself alone.
Only you can figure that out...
What if You're Still
Unhappy Being Alone?
If none of the advice above speaks to you, or
you've actually tried all the advice and are still miserable, there
might be a few reasons why.
Perhaps you're an extrovert who naturally needs and thrives around
others, or your trauma is preventing you from enjoying your
aloneness as well as others' company.
What do you do if you're still unhappy being alone?
Here's some advice:
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Seek out a therapist (there are many
options out there, both online and in-person)
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Try volunteering as a meaningful gateway
to connecting with other people
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Go out and simply be around people and
take comfort in their presence (offering a smile every now
and then to a stranger can help you to feel connected, and
9/10 it will be reciprocated)
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Find places that make you feel safe and
relaxed, like the local park or library, and regularly visit
them (which increases your chance of making friends greatly)
Final Words
To wrap up this guide on how to be happy alone, let me leave you
with a beautiful poem.
I think it nicely summarizes the beauty of
solitude and the opportunities present in this often-feared
experience:
Be a thunderstorm after a gentle rain,
or lightning that strikes on a clear day.
Be the lone wolf away from a pack,
get lost in thought, find your way back.
Be complex, no need to analyze,
whatever you are, is perfectly right.
An identical match, or one of a kind,
be darkness, or the light that blinds.
Discover your truth, even if it burns,
seek what makes your soul yearn.
Howl at the moon, slide down a star,
be the magnificent being you are.
Debra McLain
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