by Aletheia Luna
January 17, 2026
from LonerWolf Website

When we start our healing paths, spiritual journeys, and inner quests for living a meaningful life, we're often taught that the ego is our #1 enemy.

The ego is the source of our suffering.

 

The ego is out to undermine us.

 

The ego destroys our every happiness...

You've heard it all before.

And while that has some degree of truth, this teaching can actually be quite destructive...




The Trap Nobody Talks about - You can't Transcend a Self you Never Built

I often use

oracle and tarot cards as mirrors of the psyche

- like a Rorschach inkblot test.

This is the card I pulled right before writing this post.

When we lack a healthy or grounded sense of self,

we are like an empty room.

(Card from the Archetypes deck by Kim Krans.)

When I first started the inner path, I was totally convinced that my ego was the enemy - and it resulted in me trying, both actively and passively, to seek its ultimate destruction for about a decade.

I was taught that killing your ego was meant to be a "spiritual" and "awakened" thing to do.

It's something that's supposed to make you enlightened or free you from all your trauma...

What I didn't realize until much later was that we actually need our ego to survive, set boundaries, and stay safe in the world.

Yes, it can be a pain in the ass.

 

But when you learn how to be mindful, it doesn't have to overtake your life.

I've written about the dark side of non-duality and other dissociating spiritual paths before. But I'll keep things simple here.

In the words of counselor and teacher John Bradshaw,

A strong integrated ego gives you a sense of confidence and control... Paradoxical as it may seem, your ego needs to be strong enough to let go of its limited defensiveness and control.

 

You need a strong ego to transcend ego...!

Let me repeat this message in my own words again.

You need a strong sense of self before you can transcend that sense of self...

Stop Trying to Dissolve Your Ego - You Don't Even Have One Yet
 

Self-alienation

is a major issue in our world.

Not only is it created by early life trauma, but this inner estrangement is also brought about simply by living in our modern society.

• Technology

• Endless notifications

• Addictive social media

• Fast-paced lifestyles,

...have a way of dissociating us from ourselves, causing us to live externally-driven lives.

What's worse is when we experience a crisis and become lone wolves in search of meaning and clarity, we still come up against self-alienating teachings - those that place our power in the hands of others...

But without having a clearly defined sense of self, and without having access to Self (with a capital 'S', aka, the Soul), we won't get very far.

It's no wonder we keep feeling stuck, lost, or as though something is missing.

What's missing is our own embodied and grounded sense of self...!

In her book The Hero Within, author Carol S. Pearson writes,

Without a self, it really is not possible to either give much love or take it in. In the latter case, when people play a role to get love or respect - and hide who they really are (which may well be a mass of neediness) - they never really feel loved for themselves. It is the role that feels loved.

Even if you feel that you have a strong sense of self, go spend a couple of hours with your extended family or a group of strangers.

Do you still feel secure and grounded within yourself?

 

Or do you feel insecure, overwhelmed, easily hurt, or immediately enter a false role or mask?

That's a sign that your ego isn't as stable as you think it may be.
 

The Ego Isn't Your Enemy - Self-Alienation Is
 

Self-alienation is Soul Loss - the loss of connection with your deeper self, which is at the heart of the Dark Night of the Soul.

It is the dark core wound simmering beneath all anxiety, depression, and emptiness.

It is also multifaceted.

We can be both alienated from our little 's' self (ego) and big 'S' Self (Soul).

 

We can both lack a strong and healthy sense of "me and my boundaries" and be devoid of a sense of Greater Self.

Sure, the ego at first glance may appear to be the enemy. Those voices in your head saying mean things to you are unpleasant - no one would deny that.

But the deeper issue isn't those nasty voices or even arrogance or stubbornness.

It's lacking a secure inner base.

 

It's never having a healthy or well-developed sense of self to begin with.

The real issue here is developing a false self in place of an authentic, or true self.

Physician and author Charles Whitfield describes the process of self-alienation well,

When our alive True Self goes into hiding, in order to please its parent figure and to survive, a false, co-dependent self emerges to take its place.

 

We thus lose our awareness of our True Self to such an extent that we actually lose awareness of its existence. We lose contact with who we really are.

 

Gradually, we begin to think we are that false self - so that it becomes a habit, and finally an addiction.

How to Stop the Self-Alienation... and Develop a Healthier Sense of Self

The older I get, the more deeply psycho-spiritual my approach to life becomes.

We need both sides of the spectrum to thrive.

In psychology, developing a healthier and more robust sense of self is known as "ego strength."

This is the ability to maintain a strong sense of self and withstand stress, despite what life throws at you. Carl Jung called it "individuation."

How do we develop a solid, grounded, healthy, and balanced sense of self?

There are so many avenues - and this website is full of them:

1. Commit to journaling every day. (Start with these inner work journals.)
    

2. Take quality personality tests and learn more about yourself. (See these tests.)
    

3. Discover your deeper core needs, values, wounds, and beliefs. (See the Soul Work Compass Course.)
    

4. Regularly spend time in solitude to get to know yourself.
    

5. Set boundaries and learn how to say no.
    

6. Lay off mind-altering psychedelics (aka, LSD, psilocybin, mescaline, cannabis, DMT).
    

7. Do grounding and embodying meditation, like focusing on your breath or body scans (skip the "ego killing" kinds).
    

8. Spend time around safe people/pets with whom you feel relaxed - those who can mirror you.
    

9. Avoid dissociating spiritual paths (aka, astral projection, neo-advaita teachings, holotropic breathwork, kundalini yoga, etc.)
    

10. Work with somatic and nervous system healing-oriented paths.
     

11. Try bibliotherapy (reading to rediscover yourself) and using the tarot as a form of therapeutic self-discovery (non-divinatory).
     

12. Learn how to practice self-care and take time to slow down each day.