Part
5: Rocking to Amargi
Trisha spooned the arginine carefully into the grapefruit juice.
Three teaspoons made about twelve grams. She added three more
teaspoons of choline chloride mixed with pantothenic acid. She
stirred the brew carefully, added water, then drank it fast, keeping
her mind blank. She shuddered at the aftertaste.
Durk Pearson and Sandy Shaw were right, she thought. Arginine does
taste like dead goat vomit.
She went to the bedroom and stood before the full-length mirror
inspecting her body critically. High breasts giving way to a flat
abdomen. Narrow waist, a widening at the hips, and long legs that
were slightly muscular. The late afternoon sun coming through the
window highlighted the reddish gold at her crotch.
She thought a
light trim was in order.
She locked her fingers behind her neck and pulled her hair up over
her head. The golden blond mane overflowed the arc of her wrists and
still easily covered her shoulders.
She would go tonight as Dejah Thoris, she thought. When she was
growing up her father had read her Edgar Rice Burroughs' tales of
Barsoom, and she had often imagined herself as Dejah Thoris,
Princess of Helium. She had once asked her father for a jeweled
dagger, which he purchased for her a few years later on her
sixteenth birthday.
Well. Not quite as Dejah Thoris.
As Dejah Thoris she would have worn
an ornament for her hair, sandals, a simple belt to support her
dagger, and nothing else. That was the difference between
Philadelphia and Barsoom. For this party she would also wear a
dress. Perhaps the sleeveless white one with the hemline that hung
to her left ankle, but which was gathered up on the right side to
end at her hip. The dagger would hang down at the side of her
exposed thigh.
She was sure the effect would be stunning.
***
"So? What do we do
for bread?" Roy demands.
"You tell me."
Ezra spits on the sidewalk.
"The drug deal won't
fly, not with the cowboy ridin' herd down there."
They are leaning against
a wall near 12th and South. The previous week they had put up a
table near 3rd and collected signatures and money. "Committee for a
Drug-Free South Street," the cardboard had read.
They had taken in
over three hundred dollars, a hundred for rent, and the rest blown
in weekend partying.
"Let us pay a visit
to that mother Two-Shoes. Jivin' us in the presence of the Man."
They contemplate the
demise of Two-Shoes in silence, a strategic plan requiring careful
thought.
Shit, you ain't no committee for a drug-free nothin', Two-Shoes
says. The Man cocks his ear and gets nosy.
Ezra makes up a phone
number and as the Man saunters off on his horse they pack up and
disappear.
"Maybe we should
pluck some pussy off the street," Ezra says, and then Roy sees
it too.
Coming down the block, the Cadillac of downtown pussy.
"Look at her dress, pulled up like that."
"Advertisin'," says Ezra.
Roy looks at the billowing blond hair, the sleeveless white
dress, and the naked leg rhythmically flashing at him.
"Hey, lady," he says as she comes past. "Tell me how much and
I'll knock over a bank."
He reaches out and
touches her shoulder, to slow her down. He hardly senses her hand
moving, just the sting that spreads through his arm.
He looks at the line drawn from his wrist to the inside of his left
elbow. The line begins to fill with blood.
"Jesus, the bitch
cut me."
To Ezra he sounds more
awed than angry.
Roy stares at his arm as the blood begins to freely drip on the
sidewalk.
"A little love nip,"
Ezra says.
Oblivious to his
friend's plight, Ezra hurries to follow her.
***
"Get your
methylxanthines here!" a voice cried.
The methyl hawker was a
mobile concession stand, bright yellow cap and jacket, and loaded
with white styrofoam.
"What do you
recommend?" Homer Nilmot asked.
"Tea is your best bet, about 125 milligrams of caffeine, same as
a cup of coffee, but it's a better stimulant because it also
contains theophylline - the coronary vasodilator and
antiasthmatic."
"What about the hot chocolate?"
"The chocolate has two methylxanthines, the diuretic drug
theobromine and the stimulant caffeine. Mixed with succrose,
cinnamon, and vanilla, it is rich in carbohydrates and a source
of quick energy."
After a moment's
thought, Homer decided on the hot chocolate.
He sipped the thick
liquid and looked around the spacious open room that would later
serve as the dance floor for the Mauvaises Arts Ball. It was early
and people were mostly milling about, talking. Streamers, Chinese
dragons, and inflated puppets dangled in mid-air. At either end of
the floor were small raised platforms with podiums.
A woman was speaking on the far dais, but Homer couldn't distinguish
anything she said over the babble of conversation. Above the dais, a
pink neon sign flashed: "The truth shall make you free." Homer
smiled. He knew the quotation. A thin man porting two large volumes
was taking his place at the near podium.
Warbling from an old phonograph nearby was a cowboy song Homer had
never before heard outside his father's ancient stack of 78s: "He
turned his ol' belly right up to the sun. He sure was a sun-fishin'
son-of-a-gun." Strawberry Roan.
Homer paused near a man wearing a superman outfit, in which the "S"
had been replaced by "007."
007 was briefing a couple in medieval
costume.
"The original 007
was
John Dee, the leading scholar of the day, an occultist who
served as a secret agent for Queen Elisabeth I. At that
time - the Sixteenth Century - England was challenging the number
one sea power Spain.
Dee not only kept track of Spanish naval
preparations, but also helped create a defeatist atmosphere by
spreading the rumor, through personal astrological forecasts he
prepared for the King of Poland and the Emperor of
Bohemia - knowing the predictions would be repeated abroad, that
storms would cause the defeat of a great empire in 1588.
Throughout Europe everyone understood the
'great empire' to be
Spain, whose Armada was in fact defeated by the British in 1588.
You might say it was simply a good weather forecast, but the
prediction was widely believed and created a dearth of good
sailors to man the Spanish ships. Powerful, effective
propaganda. Dee also cast the Queen's horoscope and set the date
for her coronation.
"Dee introduced cryptography into the spy network run by Sir
Francis Walsingham, and signed his own occult communications
007, the number later adopted by Ian Fleming in his James Bond
novels. Ian Fleming served as assistant to the director of
British naval intelligence during World War II, and knew that
Dee was one of the founding fathers of his own organization.
It
was Ian Fleming, incidentally, who in 1943 conceived of the plan
to have Aleister Crowley question Rudolf Hess, when Hess made
his famous flight from Germany to England. Fleming thought
Crowley was just the right person to gather information on the
occult activities of the Nazis."
"This John Dee was some sort of college professor?" the medieval
woman asked.
"He was the most learned man of his time, not surprising
considering his personal library contained almost ten times as
many books as the Cambridge University library. Dee wrote the
preface to the first English translation of Euclid's Elements,
itself the most famous mathematical treatise in history.
Unfortunately, Dee was smeared by the religious establishment
because he devised a flying machine for a production of
Aristophanes' play Peace. They couldn't understand how it
worked, so they charged that Dee was in league with demons. He
had also been imprisoned for a time by Queen Mary, because he
was suspected of employing enchantments against her.
"Afterward, Dee was patronized by Queen Elisabeth, but when she
died she was succeeded by James I, who was obsessed with
witchcraft, even writing a book on the subject based on his
personal investigations. He's the same King James who had the
Bible translated into English. James' obsession with witches,
incidentally, is the reason for the infamous King James
translation, or mistranslation, 'Thou shalt not suffer a witch
to live.' Under King James, witch-hunters had full reign, and
Dee was eventually forced to step down as Warden of Manchester
College."
"So Dee was just a scholar, maligned because he was ahead of his
time?"
"Well, to be sure, like most of the leading intellects of that
age, he had a personal interest in the occult. Fascination with
the occult also seems to be endemic to the intelligence
profession. Through his scryer Edward Kelley, an Irish rogue who
was nevertheless a genuine medium, Dee held conversations with
diverse spirits. Some would later claim that Kelley used these
channeling sessions as a way of manipulating Dee."
A slender girl wearing
cat's ears moved past. She was hanging on to a pony-tailed behemoth
in a Tuxedo.
"Les vertus se perdent dans l'interet," she whispered
pointedly, "commes les fleuves se perdent dans la mer."
The man at the near podium had begun to speak.
"I refer you to the
Attorney General's Commission on Pornography, Final Report, July
1986, Volume 2.
"According to official U.S. government statistics, the magazine
Teeny Tits, Big Boobs to Chew & Suck On contains, and I quote,
'Thirty- seven photographs of a partially clothed caucasian
female exposing her breasts and her vagina; Twelve photographs
of a partially clothed caucasian female exposing her breasts and
inserting a finger or fingers into her vagina; Four photographs
of a partially clothed caucasian female exposing her breasts and
her buttocks; Three close-up photographs of a caucasian female's
vagina spread open with her fingers.'
"Ho hum, you say? Another nebulous piece of government
sociometry, to be filed and forgotten along with the balance on
merchandise trade? Not so! For independent surveys by private
researchers indicate the magazine in question actually contains
thirty- eight photographs of a partially clothed caucasian
female exposing her breasts and her vagina. So why the miscount
in this official document? Why the deliberate falsification of
an important statistic?
"I submit that we have here before us one more example of
government cover-up . . ."
Homer continued to circulate. A new record played on the
phonograph: "Stray in the bunch, and the boss said kill it. I
shot it in the rump with the handle of a skillet. Come a ti yi
yippie, come a ti yi yippie yippie yea."
"You see, we had gone out to Bird-In-Hand and Intercourse to
sample the shoo-fly pie," said a Horus-faced man sporting a
mohawk.
Homer inspected the small group, paying particular attention to
a svelte female in a bikini.
"Then in the afternoon we went back to her aunt's place near
King of Prussia where they were having a yard party. It was
mostly a group of wealthy, liberal, new-age Pennsylvania Dutch,
and someone started talking about the new wave of Hitlermania in
European publishing and how terrible it all was. You would think
they were personally responsible for what happened in Germany in
the 1940s.
"I found the fake emotion a little obnoxious, so I said one
man's culture is another man's disease. First I said that the
Nazis learned at the feet of the masters, that most of the evil
Hitler did, he learned by reading the Old Testament. Genocide? I
said. Where do you think Hitler got the idea? Yahweh told the
ancient Israelites to wipe out every man, woman, and child when
they conquered the land of Canaan he had 'given' them. Kill a
Canaanite, win a homestead. When once they spared a few people,
Yahweh smote them for rebellion.
"Racial purity? Yahweh told them not to take wives of the
surrounding peoples. Stay away from inferior goyish shiksas,
Yahweh said. If that's not master race propaganda, I don't know
what is, I said.
"The thousand-year reich? Hitler got that phrase from Martin
Luther's translation of the Book of Revelation, which was an
early Jewish apocalyptic work adopted as part of the New
Testament canon.
"Now I was really rolling, so I told them that history was on
Hitler's side. A United Europe? That's what Hitler wanted and
it's all the rage these days with European left-wing
intellectuals. Hitler took the one government, one economy, one
currency idea one step further, and planned also for a common
language. Now Europe's got it, although the language is English,
much to the disgust of the French.
"A one-world global village? McLuhan was describing what
Shicklgruber started. Technology accelerated under the Nazis,
with the beginnings of space rockets and continent-wide
electronic communication links.
"Then I got personal. I pointed out that some SS leaders were
into vegetarianism and right-brained Eastern philosophy, not to
mention consciousness-altering drugs like hashish, peyote,
amphetamines and cocaine. Change your mind and you'll change the
world. The SS understood that, or at least the leaders did.
"All in all, I said, Hitler was a man ahead of his time, a man
of the 1980's, but suffering under the Neanderthal baggage he
picked up from the Bible. Like many futants, he turned into a
maniacal killer.
"That set them back, all right," Horus-face finished smugly.
"So what did they say?" asked the girl in the bikini.
"Oh, some of them were pretty pissed. They didn't believe that
part about SS leaders being vegetarian."
There were large foam
rubber cushions and bean bags arranged along the walls. Homer
settled down on one, closed his eyes, and let the voices wash over
him.
"I have this friend
who works at a Philadelphia bank who's been mugged four times,"
a girl's voice was saying.
"Really? Four times?"
"Around that. He just looks like the archetypical chronic
victim. He wears his body like a provocative sign: 'Please don't
mug me.' People see this guy coming from a block away, and get
the instant urge to beat the hell out of him."
The voice at the podium
continued:
"...A group of
dedicated men and women putting your tax dollars to good use,
hours and hours of grueling work, watching pornographic films on
your behalf, all in the interest of science and the future of
America. Here, beginning on page 1573, is a listing of the
actual films viewed and studied by the Commission."
The speaker began to
enunciate the list in a stentorian voice.
"A Coming of Angels.
A Few Good Men. A Girl Like That. A Lacy Affair. A License to
Thrill. A Little Dynasty. A Little Sex in the Night. A Married
Man. A Matter of Size . . ."
With his eyes closed,
Homer could perceive the sounds of the room as a single standing
wave of energy, which pulsated and crackled.
Then he detected a
tremor, the arrival of a second modulating wave. Homer opened his
eyes and saw the Goddess in the doorway.
As Trisha paused, surveying the room, a refreshments boy wearing
yellow cap and jacket appeared. He obviously had instructions to
approach every new guest.
He was flustered by her presence but
rallied to the occasion.
"Adam, Madam?" he
asked.
Trisha raised her eyebrows.
"Ecstacy, MDMA. Methylenedioxymethylamphetamine returns you to
the Garden of Eden. You see the world with new and innocent
eyes. You gain an emotional empathy with everything around you.
But you don't have to worry about dissolving into the cosmic
glue, because it strengthens your ego and makes you feel good
about yourself. You can think and dance normally, while having
your heart filled with love."
The refreshments boy saw
that Trisha was regarding him with amusement. It made him feel like
a street preacher pushing Jesus.
"I'm always that way
anyway," she said. "I don't need it. Besides, it inhibits
orgasm."
"No, you wouldn't want that," he mumbled as she moved past him.
He felt faint.
Trisha spotted an
enclave with Colin Bass, the M.D. at Pennsylvania Hospital from whom
she obtained prescription pharmaceuticals. The circle opened to
admit her as she moved closer.
"In the late 1800's
health faddists said you were supposed to eat natural, wholesome
foods, get plenty of exercise, and abstain from sex," Colin was
saying.
"Good diet, good exercise, and good sex. Just like
today, except proper sex then meant no sex. Kellogg's Corn
Flakes, for example, were created by John Harvey Kellogg in the
1890's with the intention they would help eliminate harmful
sexual desires.
Mothers could perform no higher duty than to see
their sons start the day off with a fresh bowl of antimasturbation corn flakes. Kellogg's own marriage to a
nursing student at his sanitarium went unconsummated. Instead he
spent his honeymoon writing a book about the evils of sex.
On
the other hand, he did have an orderly administer him an enema
every morning after breakfast."
Behind her, Trisha heard
a man's voice reciting a list of films.
"...Debbie Does
Dallas. Debbie Does 'em All. Debbie's Fantasy. Debbi's
Confession. Deep Chill. Deep Passage. Deep Roots. Deep Throat.
Deep Thrust. Delicious. Deliveries in the Rear. Delivery Boys.
Der Lang Finger. Der Perverse Onkel. Der Sex-Spion. Desire for
Men. Desiree. Desiree Lane. Desires of the Devil. . ."
"Well," Trisha said, "medical malady or no, perhaps it's better
to keep sex slightly immoral, non-casual, hence preserving its
air of excitement and privilege for the aristocracy who dare
defy the Gods."
"The next stage of sexual evolution is technological,"
pronounced a short curly-haired punk in a Rambo T-shirt.
"Imagine this total environment, a multi-sensorily controlled
bedroom, set up with biofeedback equipment and closed circuit
holography, programmed to respond to your every mood and
generate the ultimate sexual trip with real or imaginary
partners."
"We already got that," Colin responded. "It's called the central
nervous system and it can organize your experience into pretty
much any shape you can imagine."
"Then something went wrong with my programming," a girl said.
"The more sex I have, the less I like it."
"Remember you are the programmer as well as the program."
"So what should I do?"
"Maybe you should have less sex. Abstinence makes the heart grow
fonder, and all that."
"But isn't the lack of sex the root of all evil?"
"No, you've got it mixed up." A man in horned-rim glasses spoke
up. "What Freud said was the lack of a good analyst is the root
of all evil. A good analyst will provide you with all the sex
you need."
"Ever since I read Philip Jose Farmer's book The Lovers, I've
wanted to have sex with an alien." Rambo again.
"Aren't you afraid of catching something?" Oriental girl,
genuinely curious. "Some kind of galactic gonorrhea?"
"Many men after ufo observations report a soreness in the
testicles," responded a big man in a Tux. "Maybe that's what
they have. They're suffering the biological after-effects of an
experiment in inter- species breeding."
"It happens to women too," the Oriental girl said. "I read about
a woman in California named Marian Greenberg who became pregnant
from extraterrestrials. She wrote a book about it. She hadn't
had sex for months when it happened. It's like the sons of God
seeing the daughters of men, that they were beautiful, and
through them begatting the Nephilim. "
"Yes, I read that same story. But didn't she share a hot tub
with this guy before she became pregnant? Maybe it wasn't
extraterrestrials. It could have been subterraneans." Trisha.
As the group pondered
the possibilities, Trisha looked across the room and saw Ezra
standing in the door to the kitchen.
Following Trisha up 13th, Ezra sees her disappear into Dirty
Frank's. He enters from the corner, and stands for a moment looking
at the dingy tables and the beaten up bar. Redneck song on the juke
box. In the back above the video games he sees cabinets, doors ajar,
stacked with cases of beer. A baseball game is in progress on the
blurry TV screen.
The painted wall opposite is covered with
pictures, in contrast to the dilapidated one behind him, which
displays only Budweiser and St. Pauli Girl signs.
Why don't they
spread the pictures around, make it look classy, he wonders.
Overhead fans circulate a general smell of disinfectant which
permeates the room despite two doors open to the street. Ezra feels
comfortable here. He walks around the bar to a spot near Trisha, who
is seated at the table nearest the video games.
Also at the table is a man in a business suit, a mulatto girl, and a
swarthy fellow with a small mustache. Ezra hears them call the suit
man Eric.
Eric has only stopped by for a few drinks.
"I know my wife
is going to kill me when I get home. She always yells at me when I
get smashed," he says as he drains his glass.
He smiles at Trisha.
"No wonder you
drink, a bitch like that," the girl sitting beside him speaks
up. "Here. Let me get you a cajun martini. That'll pick you up."
"Did I tell you about the hangover I had last week?" he asks
her.
Keeping an eye on
Trisha, Ezra feels in his pocket and finds he has enough change for
a beer.
He sips the brew and hears her say she is going to an old
warehouse down near the bridge. Then she is out the door and into a
taxi. Ezra grabs his bottle, rushes out to the street, and watches
the cab disappear.
He drains the bottle and throws it into an alley. Then he walkes
over to Market, down to 4th, and turns left toward the bridge. Some
weirdly dressed people drive by, and he follows the car up the
street. They get out in front of an old building. There is a bouncer
at the door, checking tickets.
Ezra watches people go in for a while, then walks around to the
back, finds an open window, and climbs through it into a kitchen. He
helps himself to the shrimp until scolded away, then walks to the
kitchen door and looks out into a large room.
Colin was speaking again.
"That's right, the FDA's Recommended Daily
Allowances are based on no scientific evidence whatsoever. Instead
they calculated the minimum amount which will keep you from getting
a known vitamin deficiency disease. Like scurvy. Say 20 milligrams
of Vitamin C. Then they add a small margin, say 40 mg.
So they set
60 mg of C as the RDA. There's not the slightest evidence that 60 is
the optimal amount. Its based on the 19th century notion that you
get all the nutrition you need from balanced meals - balanced meals
being whatever the average Joe eats. So as long as you don't have
scurvy you're getting the optimal amount of C, or whatever."
Settled back on his cushion, Homer was watching Trisha. Gradually
the impression came to him that everyone was watching her. Not
staring, just being aware she was there.
Two YMCA types had positioned themselves on the neighboring bean
bag.
"But if you're
always looking for something, you'll never find it. Just when I
thought I would be a bachelor all my life this girl comes along
and I find we have a lot in common."
"I gave you numbers to call," the other one said.
"Yeah, but I don't like to pay for it."
"I know, but if you're going with girls and calling up other
girls and paying for it, then you feel more relaxed. It's not
like you're begging for it. You know my philosophy on that."
Now a couple was
blocking his line of sight. Homer shifted so he once more had a
clear view of the Goddess. If I can't have that woman, I'll die, he
whispered to himself.
But he was too cynical to believe either that
he would ever have her, or that he would actually die from wanting.
"...Hot Action.
Hot Blooded. Hot Bodies. Hot Cars, Nasty Women. Hot Chocolate.
Hot Circuit. Hot Close Ups. Hot Country. Hot Cunt Service. Hot
Dallas Nights. Hot Dogs. Hot Dreams. Hot for Cash. Hot Fudge.
Hot Girls in Love. Hot Gypsy Love. Hot, High, and Horny. Hot
Jobs. Hot Legs. Hot Line. Hot Lunch. Hot Merchandise. Hot Nights
& Hard Bodies. Hot Number. Hot Nurses. Hot off the Press. Hot
Pants. Hot Pursuit. Hot Pink. Hot Rockers. Hot Roomers. Hot
School Reunion. Hot Shots. Hot Spa. Hot Spanking. Hot Spots. Hot
Spur. Hot Tails. Hot Touch. Hot Wire. Hot Wired Vanessa. Hotel
Hooker. Hotline. Hotter than Hell. Hottest Hunks. House of
Ill-Repute. . ."
The couple before him
were engaged in an animated discussion.
"And what's more,
you eat too fast," the girl said.
"I don't like to talk that much when I'm eating."
"And you walk too slow."
"I walk for pleasure, not exercise. When I exercise, I jog or
work out in a gym."
"Besides you're in business. I don't think I could ever respect
anyone who does that for a living."
"Jesus, Gloria, you're a nurse yourself."
"I'm helping people."
"Do you ever treat people who are in business? Or what about the
hospital you work? Isn't that a business? What if no one paid
their bills, or paid your salary?"
"You just don't understand what I mean. Because you never listen
to me."
"I'm listening now."
"And you're always arguing. You argue about everything I say."
The man in horn-rimmed
glasses was speaking passionately.
"All the signs point
to AIDS being a designer disease, engineered by genetic
manipulation, and spread - by design or by accident - under the
cover of public innoculation. Look at the patterns.
The
incidence of infection in Africa corresponds to the precise
location of the smallpox vaccination program conducted in the
mid-1970's by the World Health Organization. And the appearance
of AIDS among Haitians can be attributed to the same source,
since there were 14,000 Haitians then on UN secondment to
Central Africa who also received the vaccine.
AIDS gets to New
York City by a similar process - the Hepatitis B vaccine study in
1978.
Six years later, 64 percent of those in the study had
AIDS, and the percentage is probably higher now. Interesting
enough, back in 1969 the Biological Warfare division of the U.S.
Department of Defense requested funds at a House Appropriations
hearing to develop genetically a disease that would attack the
human immune system. What do you think happened?
They got the
money from Congress, the same idiots who are now being asked to
spend funds on a cure."
We had barely gotten
inside the door to the Mauvaises Arts Ball when Sheri had to rush
off to the bathroom. While I was waiting for her to return, a waiter
appeared.
He looked at my Levis and running shoes.
"You look like a
businessman," he said. "Perhaps some dimethyltryptamine?"
He offered me a platter
with marijuana joints neatly arranged like carrot sticks. I assumed
the DMT had been rolled into the ends of the joints.
"What else you got?"
"A mescaline mix."
He indicated the peyote buttons in the wooden
bowl in the center of the display.
"These will reveal to you a
small green man, Mescalito, whose photo appears on Peter Pan
peanut butter jars, but who is occasionally mistaken as a little
green alien from Mars.
"Finally, there are psilocybin mushrooms, the fungus of choice
for discriminating shamans."
I took one of the joints
and slipped it into my shirt pocket. In some parts of the country,
it would have been tacky to help yourself to a little of everything.
But this was Philadelphia, so I took some peyote buttons and
mushrooms also. You never knew when an emergency might arise, or
what you could trade them for.
There was a man on an elevated platform who had been reading a list
of names.
He now paused.
"You must remember that despite the
countless hours spent in viewing and analyzing this genre of film,
it is a matter of record that no male member of the Attorney
General's Commission experienced an unseemly erection, nor was any
female member forced in the course of her duties to put on dry
underwear.
This in itself is testimony to the dedication and high
moral purpose of the Commission."
He returned to the recitation of
the list.
"...Piercing of
Laura. Private Nurses. Private Party. Private Pleasures. Private
Practice. Private Teacher. Prized Possession. Pro Ball
Cheerleaders. Probation Officer's Discipline. Programmed for
Pleasure. Project: Ginger. Prunella. Public Affair. Punished.
Purely Physical. Puss N Boots. . ."
While waiting for Sheri,
I looked around the room for Homer Nilmot, and amused myself by
eavesdropping on the desultory conversations. Trans-Global had
relayed the message that Homer would meet me here.
"If it weren't for
Fred, I could have gotten my degree and really gone somewhere. I
could be teaching sociology now."
"If it weren't for Fred, you would have flunked out of college
in six months. Everybody knows your rush to get married was an
excuse to avoid exams."
"Der volkische Staat hat die Rasse in den Mittelpunkt des
allgemeinen Lebens zu setzen."
"I dreamed last night that I became the head of a nuclear power
station. Only the reactor was missing. It was in some place like
New Mexico, and everything was in a state of decay, with
crumbling walls like those at an old castle I had seen near
Salisbury in England. I, or a group of us, had stormed the place
and taken it over, then I was in charge and I felt very
confident. A military group came by with orders for an
inspection, and I could barely repress a smile because only I
knew there was no reactor to inspect.
In addition they didn't
know that the personnel had changed (that is, that we had taken
over), and were under the delusion that I might actually care
about their orders. But I let the leader of the group in to look
around. There were also other people coming and going, and two
girls showed up and started to accompany us on the tour. Then
the girls were naked with white trimmings where their bathing
suits had been. A guy and one of the girls began kissing, and I
knew that the second girl and I would get around to that too.
But then the first girl and I began kissing, and the second girl
got angry. I soothed her feelings, and then they were both
kissing me and I woke up."
"Science overthrew theology and assumed the post of
infallibility. Now it cites the warfare of science with theology
the same way the government cites the ideals of the Revolution.
Tyranny reigns under the rubric of freedom."
"Joe definitely has the biggest mortgage in our office. He must
pay three thousand a month in interest alone."
"I always thought he had that look about him. A man with a
purpose, a man with responsibilities."
"Well he does. He got a thirty-year mortgage. He'll be paying on
it till 2014."
"I wish my Arthur could do something like that. He has hardly
any debts because he can't get any credit."
"An infinite set is a set that can be put on a one-to-one
correspondence with a proper subset of itself. For example, the
natural numbers 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, ...can be matched one-for-
one with the even numbers 2, 4, 6, 8, 10, . . ., since 1 matches
with 2, 2 matches with 4, 3 matches with 6, and so on. The
number n matches with the number 2n.
Therefore there is a sense
in which we can say that all the natural numbers are contained
in the set of even numbers. In a similar way, a hologram can be
matched with a proper subset of itself. Suppose you have a
hologram of the Philadelphia Museum of Art and Fairmont Park.
You can throw it all away except for a piece, but from that
piece you can reconstruct the entire original hologram. Thus
each part can be said to contain the whole image of the museum
and the park, and the whole image can be examined by looking at
only a tiny portion."
"He was the type of guy who was always spilling french fries in
his lap."
"She was weeping and cursing when I vaulted into her brain."
"We can't get it all together. It is all together."
"I don't practice what I preach because I'm not the kind of
person I'm preaching to."
"The classic double-bind theory of Gregory Bateson can be
illustrated by the mother who tells her kid to quit imitating
Johnny and to be himself. Of course the kid, left to himself,
had the spontaneous inclination to imitate Johnny, but now he's
told this is not being himself. Thus, by definition, he's wrong
no matter what he does, and this circuit of insanity gets
imprinted in his mind."
"Crotchless underwear?"
"If you look at a Cadillac today, and you look at a Cadillac
tomorrow, there's a little bit of difference."
"That's true. You can't step into the same Cadillac twice."
"I just had a tissue donor from Doylestown."
"How could a boogey man be in my house?"
"Boogey men have lots of keys."
"You'll pay to know what you really think."
"Careful analysis by the President's Commission notes the
paperback book Tying Up Rebecca contains, on the inside cover,
an advertisement for Stallion Slo-Cum Spray. This official
document states, 'A photograph of the product is on this page
and printed below the photograph is "Get it up and keep it up!"
A three paragraph narrative explains its application and why
it's needed. The price is $10.00 and an order form has been
supplied on page 192.' "
Ezra stops a passing waiter. "Can you get me some of that slokum
spray?"
"No, but I do have a nice mixture of cocaine and phenylalanine.
It's rolled in a coconut macaroon for oral ingestion."
Ezra eyes the concoction. "How about a beer?" he asks
cautiously.
"Sorry, hard drugs you have to buy yourself." The waiter points
to the cash bar in the corner.
"Lawyers are living proof cowboys fuck sheep."
"Backward ran the sentences until reeled the mind."
"I was parked on Sansom street and someone vandalized my car,
threw a rock through a window, left glass all over the inside. I
called the police to report it, and they asked if anything was
missing. I said no, didn't appear to be. Then it occurred to me
it would be better to have something missing. So I said a
camera, a Polaroid, had disappeared."
"Would Jesus take a urine test?"
"He said render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar's, and
unto God the things that are God's."
"Well, whose urine is it, God's or Caesar's?"
"And now we come to the Attorney General's official synoptical
review of the movie Forgive Me I Have Sinned.
"A male dressed in a robe is seated behind some lattice work
with smoke surrounding him. The young girl, who is dressed in
what looks like a parochial school uniform, stands on the other
side of the lattice work.
"Who are you, she asks?
"Tell me about the sins of the flesh, the man says.
"What do you want me to say? The girl moves closer to the
lattice work.
"You little fool. Tell me of your sins if you want to be
forgiven.
"It was when Serena and I went camping. It was so much fun. The
campfire was warm. I was so tired, my sleeping bag was so warm.
I just went to sleep. I dreamt Serena was touching me.
"How was she touching you? How did she touch you?
"She touched my face. She touched me with her hands and her
mouth. She kissed me. And then she moved her hands further down
and I couldn't breathe.
"Tell me more how you've sinned....
"She put her hands between my legs and I felt all warm and
strange...."
I worked my way to the
far side of the room, where I spotted Homer Nilmot looking at a neon
sign above the head of an intense young woman at a podium.
"Plainly put," the
woman was saying, "the Mark of the Beast is a designation
without which no man can buy or sell. Buying and selling
requires money. Most money exists in the form of checking
accounts. Ever try to open a checking account without giving the
bank your social security number?
Your SS number goes on your
employment record, your tax record, your school record, and the
data files for all your credit cards, your driver's license and
your passport. It serves as a general universal identifier, a
mark, which is computer coded to keep track of all your
financial and other important activities.
"A social security number is just the embryonic beginning of the
Beast system.
At the European Economic Community's three-story
computer complex in Luxembourg, an attempt is being made to
assign every man, woman, and child on the face of the earth an
18-digit number, that is 6 + 6 + 6 digits. Interestingly, the
computer complex itself is commonly referred to as 'the Beast.'
"
This was my kind of good
rant. I liked this woman. She continued.
"I refer you to the
eye-opening book, When Your Money Fails ...the "666 System"
is here, by Mary Stewart Relfe, Ph.D. The cover notes that this
work has been called 'one of the most astounding books of this
generation,' by Colin Deal, author of the best seller Christ
Returns by 1988.
"This fine work points out that that the first war ship which
entered the newly re-opened Suez Canal in June 1975 carried on
its deck Egyptian President Anwar Sadat, and on its bow the
number 666. It also says that all Arab-owned vehicles in
Jerusalem must carry the license prefix '666' in order that
Israel may be able to quickly identify the enemy if war breaks
out. . ."
By this time I had
reached Homer. All I wanted was to explain the trip to
California - to continue the Jack Parsons investigation - and verify
Trans-Global would pay expenses, a task I managed to accomplish
despite acoustical chaos.
The important work done, I indicated the
sign above the girl.
"How about you? Do
you know the Truth?" I asked.
"Yeah. Known it for years," Homer said.
"Has it make you free?"
"Not really. I had to fire my God because he wasn't doing his
job."
Homer looked thoughtful.
"When I was at
college," he said, "sophomores would sneak into the restrooms
some nights at the start of the school year, and put these signs
above the urinals. On the signs would be a single biblical
reference: I Kings 21:21. It was on old joke, but new Freshmen
wouldn't have heard about it yet and would go and look it up."
"And what does the reference say?"
"Every man that pisseth against the wall shall be cut off."
"With respect to the number 666, elementary gematria reveals . .
.," continued the girl at the podium. But gematria's revelation
was aborted, for at that moment the room darkened, and a booming
voice overrode all competition.
"Welcome ladies and gentlemen, not to mention all you idolators,
whoremongers, dogs, insensitives, unbelievers, effeminate,
abusers, sorcerers, despisers of government, fornicators, and
blasphemers. And greetings, too, to those unclean, unsanctified,
puffed up with knowledge, or holding political office.
A toast
to Apocalypse Culture! The End Time is here! It's here NOW! So
tonight it's fitting that we begin the first annual Mauvaises
Arts Ball with a prophetic PLAGUE FROM HEAVEN!"
A shower of hailstones
fell from the ceiling. A woman near me shrieked as ice slid down her
ample cleavage.
Then the room went completely black, and from the
four walls came a thunder clap, the voice of Grace Slick:
"Every
night I rock myself to sleep."
The song was over before a slight illumination reappeared. Just
enough light to make out the facial features of the person next to
you if you looked carefully. I felt a tug at my arm. It was Sheri
and with her was another girl, of medium height, with a wild mane of
hair that shot out in all directions.
I missed her name, but I caught the warmth given off by her body as
we stood toe to toe for introductions.
As above so below.
Random thoughts kept popping into my head.
Sheri had left again to talk to a fellow Sub-Genius, the ranter with
the inside scoop on the 666 system. For reasons unknown Sheri had
set me up with the girl with the wild hair. Why, didn't seem
important at the moment.
We began to dance. It was crowded and it seemed natural I would lace
my fingers at the small of her back and pull her close. Angel means
messenger. Her reaction was unexpected. She simply leaned her
forehead into my shoulder and pressed her stomach and pelvis against
me. We danced some more, body to body. She was wearing a strange
perfume that was heady, erotic. What we require is an angelology of
words.
After a while I slid my hands down on her hips, feeling their
rhythm. She turned her face upward in invitation, and as I kissed
her, she slipped her hand under my shirt and ran her fingers up and
down my side.
Words are angels, independent carriers of soul. She unbuttoned my
shirt. I shifted uncomfortably in my Levis, and started to pull
away. But she adjusted to the motion, keeping her pelvis pressed
against me as I stepped backward. The powder developed by Jack
Parsons using roofing tar and sodium perchlorate was known as GALCIT
53.
At this point I lost all desire to slow the course of events. In
the darkness I began to roll her skirt up under my fingers until I
reached the hem.
Then I slipped a hand underneath the elastic of her
panties, and caressed the cleavage between her hips. She shifted her
right hand around to my back, clinging to me, standing on tiptoes
and pushing her breasts forward. The slightest nudge would have
toppled us over.
We were both breathing hard. I realized we were standing beside a
cushion, and I sat back on it and pulled her down on top of me. I
was dimly aware that we were not the only couple making use of the
darkness. She sat astraddle my thighs, and began to unfasten my
Levis. I rolled her over to the side and slipped a hand into her
panties. She pressed against my fingers as I explored her body. If
the present is intolerable, and the future is inaccessible, only the
past can furnish models for change that can be communicated to a
mass population with relative ease.
Then I pulled her panties off entirely, slipping them over her
shoes. I leaned back on the cushion and pushed my Levis down to my
knees, and she straddled me again and slipped me inside her. It was
a slow number and we got into a rhythm of sorts with the music.
Our
life is less the resultant of pressures and forces than the
enactment of mythical scenarios. I wanted to pull her dress
completely off, but I yielded to prudence and contented myself with
unbuttoning the front to caress her breasts.
She had her hand down
between us, exploring the connection, monitoring the thrusts, and
massaging us both. Then she leaned forward over me, shaking her head
from side to side in orgasm.
I was in no hurry. The longer this lasted the better. But she
abruptedly pulled off me, then turned and took me into her mouth. By
considering the personified archetypes as Gods, they become
recognizable as persons, each with styles of consciousness or
typical modes of apprehension.
The insistence of her lips and
fingers made me come almost immediately. I guess it was just as
well, because the voice of the master of ceremonies intruded to
state this would be the last number before the channeling session by
Helen Morley. I pulled up my Levis and she buttoned her dress as the
lights began to brighten.
She gave me a kiss, and as she did so I
spied her panties, which were still lying on the floor. She smiled
when I handed them to her, and walked away carrying them in her
hand. I watched her cross the room and exit through a door on the
other side.
Finally I looked around me and I saw Sheri standing a few feet away,
contemplating me behind an expressionless mask.
"Not I was the cause
of this act, but Zeus and my portion and the Erinys who walks in
darkness: they it was who in the assembly put wild ate in my
understanding," I quoted.
"Helen can't channel unless she's just had sex," Sheri said
matter- of-factly.
"That was Helen Morley?"
Sheri nodded.
"So what could I do?
Deity will always have its way." But I couldn't help asking:
"What if I hadn't been available?"
Sheri didn't bother to
comment.
Later, after the lights had darkened, a there had been a moment's
silence, Helen Morley began to talk about new light from the sun and
the time of coming Earth changes.
It was weird and garbled stuff, but seemed quite in keeping with the
rest of the evening.
"The Earth will begin to receive light with a new frequency. This
increase in intensity of the frequency of energy will produce a
different life, which will be lived in a different way from the one
known today.
This means that the cyle of life on Earth will be
totally and radically changed, because of the inevitable mutations
which will result at the electro-chemical- molecular level.
Other
forms will be given to the animal and vegetable kingdoms. Man will
undergo a change in the force field which structures him."
She was talking in a microchip-simulated voice, like those in new
model cars that tell you your seat belt is unfastened.
"Every man, as
vivified by energy, has his own determined force field, which is
the etheric body, or the soul - the psychic energy which
structures the material form. The good quality force field of
man is capable of bearing, without any damage to matter, any
kind of change in freqency of energy, which determines a new
time where different values exist.
But if the organism is a
chaotic vibrator of exterior effects, produced by excessive
human emotivities (hate, malice, envy, egoism, hypocrisy, fear,
etc.), the syntony with values of the Universal Force Field will
then go though major distortions, distortions which would make
any energetic power change unbearable to the cellular system.
"Survival, therefore, is for those who, by their spiritual
evolution, have attained a physical structure and psychic
frequency which harmonizes with the Superior Force Field coming
from the sun in an energetic form. The increase in power of the
energy coming from the sun will also produce a certain effect in
the mental field of the humans: what is negative will become
more negative, and what is positive will acquire a greater
syntony. When this energy, which is spiritual, is in discord
with the mind, a short-circuit is produced in the organism and
certain fuses blow.
"This will lead to an exaggeration of violence and evil in
general, a progressive degeneration of the remaining moral,
ethical, social, religious, and spiritual values by which the
human society is still structured. The few people whose
individual force field is in syntony with the values of the
Universal Force Field will have to struggle in order to keep
away from the negative solicitations emitted by the human
masses, who are caught in the crazy whirlpool of a destructive,
uncontrollable, and non-preventable delirium."
"Sounds like she's talking about all of us," I said to Sheri.
"The chaotic vibrators of exterior effects were driven to the
Mauvaises Artes Ball."
"Yeah, well, what do you think about Helen Morley as New Age
prophetess?"
"At least there's no ectoplasm. But she seems to be more
interested in frequencies than freedom," I said. "I think I
liked her better with her panties off."
I shut up then, because
I saw that Helen was looking at us, as though in some supernatural
way she had overheard our conversation. She began walking toward
us - toward me - her eyes in a parallel focus, looking at a distant
point beyond my head.
She stopped a couple of feet away. "They have given me a message for
you," she said.
I waited, conscious of the watchful eyes of the surrounding people.
When she didn't speak, I finally decided she was waiting for a
reply.
"Okay, I'm ready for
the message."
"You have to separate the wheat from the chaff," she said.
I started to laugh out
loud, but then I realized the room had changed.
I was looking out a window, across a valley, to an adjacent hill.
There before me were the walls of Jerusalem's Old City.
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