The Intelligence that brought our
Universe into existence is enormously sophisticated, and the
workings of this intelligence are far beyond our human
capacities of comprehension.
If you want access to its knowledge, this
intelligence has to teach you how to receive it.
Since this intelligence is nothing other
than our own being, it's a matter of learning how to
become Conscious at deeper and deeper levels of our being, or Being
Itself.
The "Council of Elders" seemed to
be a training exercise in developing the necessary awareness
for this task.
The elders were the guardians of knowledge, the knowledge of
what has been going on in the universe for billions of
years. Because I sought this knowledge, I was brought before
the council to get it.
This knowledge is not just given to you,
you have to work for it.
First, you have to work to reach this
level of awareness, and then you have to work to sustain the
concentration necessary to receive the knowledge that they
can make available to you.
I was sitting with the
Council of Elders at what felt to me
to be the primal core of the universe, in the bowels of the
cosmos where the guardians of physical existence conjure and
make things happen.
A charged field of synchronicity that
blended music and experience into a single field surrounded
me.
I wanted to know things...
An idea of something I wanted to
understand would come into my mind and immediately the
council knew it and accepted it as a formal request.
The head of the council would bellow a
thundering chant,
"He wants to know...",
...then the others would join in and they
would start an invocation.
They chanted to gather power because if
you want to know certain things, you've got to gather the
power necessary to access that reality.
You've got to say
the mantra so many times, etc.
Even the Council of Elders had to gather
power. And so they started chanting...
I learned the hard way that I had to be ready for what would
happen next. I had to stay extremely focused, because when
they released that power, a vast, all-consuming knowing
engulfed me.
If I was focused and centered when this
knowledge hit me, it would carry me into the most exquisite,
orgiastic ecstasy of knowing imaginable.
If, however, I had not controlled my
thoughts carefully while waiting and was not centered when
it arrived, the knowing would shatter me.
It would drive me beyond my ability to
experience coherently and explode me into cognitive chaos.
Both of these happened numerous times
today.
Sometimes I would make a mistake:
I would get distracted while the
elders were chanting.
When this happened someone or something
would grab me right down to my bones and say:
"Listen! Listen! Will you grow up!
That's not what this is about! Now pay attention!
All of these things have their place.
But if you want to understand the structure of the
universe, you've got to be able to take it on at deep
levels.
You've got to be able to experience
it."
The Council of Elders gave me access to
experiential knowing that allowed me to see many pieces of
how the universe works.
I could know anything I wanted if I could
endure it, but to endure it, I had to be able to "go flat
out with existence," that is,
to expand to the size of the reality
I wished to have knowledge of.
Somehow my being able to know the
universe in this way answered a longing so deep that I knew
it had been driving me for thousands of years...
